It was one year ago today that I found out I was pregnant. It was also one year ago today that I quit smoking. I was ecstatic to find out that I was pregnant. Unfortunately, four days later I found out that it was ectopic and the pregnancy was terminated. I will never view Valentine's Day the same way again. I am extremely grateful that I received another chance; however it does not take away the fact that I lost the baby. I have been trying to hold it together today but I have reached my breaking point. I am sad and I guess I am grieving again. I have such tremendous fears regarding this pregnancy as well. Because I have already lost two pregnancies, I am terrified of something happening again. I realize that I have only 8 short weeks left and that it is highly unlikely that anything will go wrong, but there is still that slight possibility. I continue to pray daily and thank God for each day that I make it through, but I can't seem to escape from my nagging fears. I am finally going to go and buy the crib and car seat next week-end. Hopefully getting everything set up and prepared will help this become more of a reality for me. I absolutely can't wait to hold her in my arms!!