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    June 30

    party was a success

      Jace's party was a complete success.  He was a little disappointed in the ratio of adults to kids, but all-in-all, everything went well.  Jace's dad and step-mom showed up with his two younger brothers.  They were quiet and no problems arose, although they were the first to leave and Jace noted that.  I hadn't even realized it until the next day when he was talking about it.....stating that his dad was the first to go and that he wasn't very happy about that.
     
     
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      He got the guitar that he's been asking and asking for, however, he seems much  more interested in all the bug equipment that he received.  (He was given a bug vacuum and a couple of habitats to house the dirty little buggers.........which he has filled with any bug he could find).  Once again, he called his dad and told him that he didn't want to come over for his scheduled visit.  His dad allowed him to stay home, but told him that he would be leaving on the 1st regardless.  Jace and I have done a lot of talking and he's not very comfortable going, but he knows that he can call either myself or grandma at any time.  I'm also going to talk to his dad and hopefully he will listen to reason and if either of the kids want to come home, they will be able to.  Not quite sure how well that'll go over though, since it'll be HIS scheduled time.  Tomorrow.......not really looking forward to it.  Dez left with grandma yesterday already.  She'll be gone over the week-end and then when she gets back, it will be time to go to her dad's.  Luckily after a long discussion, Dez is no longer interested in moving in with her dad.  She'll go for the visitation time and then will be coming home with no arguement.
     
      The dieting and exercising hasn't been going very well this week.  Wednesday before the party, I fell down my stairs carrying a box of decorations and twisted my ankle.  Needless to say, I didn't walk Wednesday or yesterday.  I spoke to the doctor and am taking some pain meds that have helped quite a bit.  I'm hoping to be able to walk later this evening.  It'd be really awesome if there was air in my bike tires, because then I would just go for a ride instead.  Of course, I couldn't have thought of that when I had my dad's pick-up!!!!  I should have taken all of our bikes in for air yesterday before returning it.  Oh, well........I guess I'll have to figure something else out.  (For those of you who were fortunate to miss out on the drama.............I lost my ONLY set of car keys after cleaning out the car and the house.  I took a taxi to work on Wednesday---party day, of all days!!---then dad picked me up from work and I borrowed the truck.  Panic, panic, panic!  The dealerships told me they wouldn't be able to make a new key from the VIN number because it was too old.  The locksmiths said the same thing.  I didn't have time to panic and dwell on the keys because I needed to get the party arrangements done.  Later on, I ended up finding them IN THE DUMPSTER.  I guess I threw them out along with the trash!  Needless to say, I will be making a copy of the key so this doesn't happen again.)
     
      I found out that the spa will only be open for a few hours on the 4th of July and the library is closed.  YAY!!  That means I will get a day off, rather than having to work 13 days in a row without a break (which is what I was originally scheduled).  I am sooooo looking forward to sleeping in!  Kind of bummed though, because Julian doesn't want to waste money on fireworks since we don't have the kids.  I understand, but it only comes once a year & I was hoping we could at least shoot off a few.  Hmmmmmmm, I may need to work on that.
     
      Business in the spa is picking up and we are just finishing with the jacuzzi lounge.  The sauna was installed yesterday, so there's basically just the finishing touches left.  It's been really nice not having to take any summer classes and it's great having a job that I enjoy.

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    Quick update: I weighed in and found out that I lost TWO pounds!! Yay! I thought I had only lost one! Not bad for not putting much effort into it. Goal for this week: cut out sweets and extras that I don't really need. So far, I'm not the top loser (that person lost 4 pounds---but she's also going through a break-up along with some unexpected legal issues) but I didn't gain either.  I think it's going to be a close race if things continue....one person lost 1/2 lb, someone lost 1 lb, I lost 2, another lost 4, and one person gained 1 1/2 lbs.

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      The kittens are home and are doing rather well.  I was so happy to be able to pick them up from the vet myself, although I could've done without the shock that I received there.  Julian told me in advance that he had signed the kittens up for their shots and everything else in addition to getting them fixed and declawed.  However, he failed to mention that these little extras would add up to the sum of over $175!!!!  I went in to the vet clinic thinking that the bill was going to be roughly $200....imagine my surprise when I hear the total.......$387. and some odd-numbered cents!!  WHAT!!!!!????!!!!!!!1  I asked them what all they had done to my poor kitties and they gave me a print-out of the services they provided. HMMMMMMMMMM.  I was only able to pay them $240.  I have 30 days to pay the rest of the balance.  Naturally, we didn't have that figured into our monthly budget, so we will have to make some adjustments to get by.  Both kittens seem to be doing well this morning and I know that it will be worth it in the long run, it was just a complete shock to the system initially.
     
      Dezirae finally came home last night, however that wasn't an easy situation either.  She had started calling me at !:00 in the afternoon, asking if she could stay at her dad's another night.  I told her "no", it was time to come home.  After several phone calls later and several arguements to boot, she finally showed up at home....around 9pm....with her dad and step-mom in tow.....wanting to know if she could GO LIVE WITH HER DAD!!!!!!!!!  Excuse me?  Am I really hearing this??  We argued and went back and forth over the stipulations of the visitation agreement and I also told them that they would be having her for 3 weeks straight here very soon and that they could wait unti then.  Will and Kim are upset with JACE because they see him as a manipulator...yet, here is Dezirae playing the both of us like cards and he can't see it.  She ended up staying at home last night and we had a long conversation.  jShe admitted to me that she has more fun over there and doesn't want to live there, she just wanted to stay another night.  Soooooo, in order to stay just one more night, she was willing to "move" to live with her dad.  It's a matter of control and it's really starting to get on my nerves.  She is 8 years old, yet knows how to play the system like there's no tomorrow!  She seemed fine once she got home...I don't know, though...I'm very confused.  I'm also hurt and mad.  I'm most certainly not going to be kissing my daughter's arse just to get here to be content living with me.  The papers all state that I have custody...she's just gonna need to get used to the fact that not everything is fun and games.
     
      I tried asking Will what his plans would be for the school year and if Dez would still be able to be in extracurricular activities if she were to live with him.  He said that she could be in one or two, but wouldn't be able to continue the way she previously had been.  The whole time he was over, it was nothing but arguing and looking back now, I realize that I could have handled the situation differently.  Oh, well...can't go back and change it now.  I do plan on calling my lawyer and filling him in.  I also intend to let both Will and Dez know that this will be the last of the unscheduled visits.  I let Dez stay there a few nights that weren't his normal visiting days.  Needless to say, if this is the thanks that I get for that, I don't need to be told twice not to let it happen again!  I feel really bad that Dez said she didn't want to live at home anymore, however, I need to remember that the rules are different at her dad's.  They are allowed pop, they pretty much can stay up however late they want, but I think the biggest thing is that she is treated so much older than she actually is.  They put a lot of responsibiliity on her to watch the boys (her younger brothers, ages 1 and 2).  I don't know though, it's so confusing!!!  She'll complain to my mom that she doens't like being forced to watch the boys and she'll tell grandma that all she does is chores and she doesn't like it over there.....then she comes home to tell me that she'd rather live with him???  I think it's just a matter of trying to get what she wants, and that she doesn't realize the seriousness of her decisions.  I've already told both Will and Kim, in addition to Dez, that if she were to go and live with him, there would be no bouncing back and forth.  This would not be a situation where she just goes with whomever has the better activity planned.  Regardless, I have a new issue on my plate and am not looking forward to how this will play out.  Dez is a smart little girl and unfortunately knows how to play the game a little too well.
     
      Other than that, I guess things are going well.  Last week, I started a weight-loss challenge at work.  For 6 weeks, several of us are competing to see who can lose the most weight.  We each are putting 50 cents in the piggy bank a day (a total of $21 in the end).  We weigh in each Monday, and then at the end of the 6 weeks, whomever has lost the most weight, gets the money in the pig.  Either way, it's awesome.  First of all, it's much easier to lose weight when you're working with someone else.  Second of all, who couldn't use a little over $100?  (would've been more, but there was lack of participation....I think only about 1/2 a dozen of us are doing it).  So, I weighed in this morning, with a weight loss of 1.5 pounds.  Not really as much as I wanted, but what do I expect???  I haven't been doing very well with watching what I eat or cutting out goodies.  I have, however, been excersing every day at least once, if not twice.  Now, if I could just get the two of them to coincide!!
     
      So, it's Monday, and I've decided that this week is going to go well and we are going to get through everything with smiles this week.  Jacerman's birthday is coming up on Wednesday....I'm very excited for that.  His John Deere party's going to be awesome!   Pretty sure my grandparents and my dad will get a kick out of the decorations.  Then on Friday, Dez leaves with my mom to go to Nebraska with several other family members.  Mom's gonna have a talk with her too, to find out what's going on and to try to figure out where all this is coming from.  Maybe this 3-week visitation is what she needs to see that it's not all that it's cracked up to be at her dad's.  (So far, she's pretty much only stayied there on the week-ends, when they can go run around or go camping, etc....no work days)
     
      Oh, yeah....Julz is expecting company from out of town tomorrow.  It should be a rather busy week in our household then.  I've also picked up some hours at work, so I will be working every day this week (Monday thru Sunday), and more than likely Monday thru Friday....so, my next day off will be in about 12 days.  What have I gotten myself in to????  Keep in mind, that's only one job and I will still need to work at my other job at least a few days this week!  Oh, well....we need the money, and it should help us get back on our feet a little.  I'm planning on picking up more hours when the kids are with their dad, too.  I figured that would be the most productive way to get through the days when they aren't home. 
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    June 22

    Can anything else go wrong today?

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    I AM STRESSED OUT TODAY!!!!!!!! Why does everything have to be sooo complicated with me? This has been an absolute morning from HELL! I was looking forward to taking the kitties in to have them fixed and declawed today....what a frickin' issue that has been! I had to schedule their appointment several weeks in advance because the vet clinic is that busy. (scheduling was the eaisest part) I then needed to find someone to either cover my shift so I could take them, or find someone willing to drive the 20 miles (it's cheaper and they're more humane) to drop them off. Well, I got that taken care of by finding someone to work for me. Then comes the next dilemma....what to do with the kids. (My co-worker has another job and agreed to only cover me for a little over an hour.) At the last minute, I called their dad and asked if they could spend the night over there so I wouldn't have to worry about where they were going to go. Everything SEEMED to be under control.
     
    THEN ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE!! Jace called me crying from his dad's house shortly before 11PM saying that he wanted to come home. I went over there and picked him up and brought him back home. I then get a phone call from his dad chewing me out for picking him up. I told him that if it was his SCHEDULED night, then I maybe would have done things different, but since it was MY night, that I didn't see a problem with it. I also said that by 11:00pm, all the kids should already be in bed (all 4 of the kids were wide awake when I picked up Jace). We got in to an arguement over the kids listening to him and the "rules" at his house. I told him that maybe the kids would go to sleep if they had somewhere to lay down, and if things weren't so chaotic. (because of course, their "friend" was over spending the night and all the lights in the house were on). I don't know what I'm supposed to do about this. The kids can't stay there for 3 weeks straight if they are still going to be sleeping on the floor. Last night, Jace was supposed to be sleeping in a toddler bed with his brother, who is almost 3. Okay, anyone who has kids knows that a toddler bed is tiny to begin with....now add not one, but TWO kids to that bed and you tell me that they are supposed to be able to rest comfortably all night long!! The youngest was laying on the floor buck-naked and there was trash laying strewn throughout the apartment. I just want to scream!! However, there is nothing that I can do except for continuing to keep accurate documentation and save my kids from what I can. That started everything....but I thought "no big deal" because I could just take Jace with in the morning and then Julian could take him to daycare.
     
    Yeah, umm, well, it didn't really work out like that. I got a phone call (about the time I would already be headed out the door----I have an issue with being late) saying that my hours would no longer be covered. (my co-worker wasn't feeling well and decided that she couldn't cover for me) That immediately ruined my morning start. Rather than being able to take a shower and get to work on time, I franctically got dressed (still nasty and sweaty from yesterday....sick, sick, sick!) and yelled at Julian to hurry up and get out of the shower so he could give me a ride. He hates being rushed.....I hate being late..........we're both upset about not being able to take the kittens in.........(I'm not sure if they will reschedule and if they will, it will be several more weeks) I decided just to cancel their appointment and I will just pay the extra $50 and have them done here in town......against my better judgement, but what choice do I have? I got to work about 10 minutes before the spa opens....generally I like to be here 15-25 minutes early.......anyways......I was able to open the spa on time......with a few minor injuries along the way........damn construction in the building anyways!!
     
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    Julian called me and let me know that he would take the kittens to the vet. Yay! Thank you~! Thank you~! Thank you~! He didn't want to do it because he doesn't know where he is going and has only been to that town a few times and he was never alone.....it's a really teeny town though, so he should be fine. He's just pissed because this morning was hell. He's also pissed because he knows that I'm pissed. Oh, well....everything appears to have worked out alright. I wonder if I'm going to have to go through this again tomorrow.....I had to ask a friend to pick the kittens up for me because I am needed at my other job and won't get off until 5pm, when I think the vet clinic closes. I can't imagine what could go wrong, but after today I wouldn't doubt it. Don't get me wrong, I understand that things come up and that people get sick. The problem is I thought I had a plan and it all backfired. I just wish that I could've gotten the phone call earlier so I wouldn't have been so rushed. I guess it's safe to say that I will NEVER be able to call in sick to work at my spa job, for lack of people to cover me.....especially if I can't even find someone to work for an hour. So, now I am at work trying to get my emotions back under control. I did not handle this morning well at all and spent probably a half-hour crying my eyes out.............Yes, I realize that that didn't solve anything........but damn, it!! I needed to!!!!!!!!!! I'm feeling better now......just waiting for Julian to get back and let me know how things went. I imagine things will be stressful on the homefront when he gets back. I just want ONE day where things can go smoothly. I am so frustrated. I feel like I do my best to help out my friends and to be there when I am needed. Why can't I find someone willing to do the same for me? I don't have extremely high demands......Oh, well, life goes on. I guess I'm done complaining for now. One of these days, though, it's gonna be MY turn and I'm gonna be the one unavailable and unwilling to help! (ok, ok, I know that'll probably never happen, but I'd like to think that I'm not a complete doormat!)
     
    JUST FOR CLARIFICATION:  I AM NOT MAD AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR.......I AM NOT BLAMING ANYONE.............I AM SIMPLY USING MY SPACE AS A PLACE FOR PERSONAL VENTING.  IT IS NOT MY GOAL TO OFFEND ANYONE WITH ANY OF MY RAMBLINGS................I DO IT SIMPLY FOR MYSELF IN A FEEBLE ATTEMPT TO SAVE WHAT IS LEFT OF MY SANITY.  SOOOOOO, IF YOU ARE READING THIS, PLEASE DON'T TAKE ANYTHING I SAY PERSONALLY, AS THIS IS MY VENTING GROUND.
     

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    Just to update everyone........Julian is back in town and was able to find the vet clinic and drop the kittens off.  He then came back to town and took Jace to daycare.  Now all is well and I'm off work in less than 3 hours, so I should be able to handle the rest of the shift.  Not much more can go wrong than what already has.  In addition to my own chaos, there is the everyday chaos that is the spa.  (such as overbooking, people confused about their appointment times, people being late for work, unprofessionalism.....I could go on and on but I'll leave it at that)  After I get off of work here, I am going home.  I'm NOT working at the library today, I'm not running errands........I'm doin' nothin'!!

     

      Just when I thought things couldn't get worse.......... my job at the spa has finally gotten to me.  I reached a breaking point.  I have just spent the last half-hour crying at work---totally not intended, that's usually just my first reaction to being overly stressed.  My "manager" is the most unprofessional person I know.  No matter how hard anyone tries, we can't make up for that fact.  I am tired of everyone being expected to kiss her ass just because she is going through a difficult time!  All of us have stuff going on in our lives, however, this is a JOB and when we are here, our troubles are to stay outside the door.  I've had it!  I can't make up any more excuses for her.  I think her lack of professionalism is going to ruin the whole spa.  We are never going to be able to keep clients if their first impression is a terrible one!  After several weeks of silently complaining, all has come to a head.........and I CrAcKeD.  Broke down in tears and let it all out.  I spoke to my boss (not the "manager" but my actual boss) and it sounds like things may change sooner than I thought.  I was able to get everything out in the open though.  I let her know exactly how I felt.  So, I guess we'll see if anything changes.  If not, I may not be working here much longer.  I'm going to school for NURSING....I can easily get a job in the health care profession, or I can go back to simply doing work-study at the library until I graduate.  I guess things needed to go like this so I would finally be able to speak my mind and confront my boss on these issues that have been buggin' me.  (I don't know why I have such a hard time talking to her....I knew her long before the spa opened......)  So, now everything is out in the open and I have made it well-known what I can and cannot put up with.  Sooooo, things had better start looking up!!!!!!!!

    June 20

    The shower went well!

      Ah, relief.  Time for a small break!  The baby shower/going away party turned out rather well.  I think the games added a fun touch and everyone seemed to have a good time.  My girlfriend is now finishing packing, as she will be moving in just a few short days.  jShe thanked me several times, and let me know that all I did was appreciated.  I'm glad that she is happy and I'm glad that it's over.  My next big  mission to accomplish is to help with another girlfriend's bridal shower that I am helping to host.  This one should be much easier, however, because we have known about it for quite some time.  In addition to that, there is someone else involved in the planning and organinzing.  We picked out some games several weeks ago and there has been planning for the food and decorations as well.  The bride-to-be is getting very excited.  I think all will go well and it will turn out to be great.
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      I had my bridesmaid dress fitting last night...it took nowhere near as long as I was expecting it to, and it just needed to be taken in a little at the sides.  Other than that, it's good to go.  We have some time yet before the wedding, but it's sneaking up pretty quickly...she has just barely over a month to go.
      After her shower on Saturday, the next big event will be Jace's birthday.  That one should be the eaisest to put together.  Invitations have already been sent, food doesn't need to be taken care of until that day, and the decorations are good to go.  I ordered everything off the internet from birthdayexpress.com, which turned out to be the absolute easiest way to go.  Everything I need for his party is in this box, from invites to decorations to party favors to gift bags to thank-yous.  EVERYTHING!  It's awesome!  And everything matches and it looks so great!  He's gonna be thrilled.  We've made it a point not to show him, so it should all be a surprise to him at the party.  He knows he's having a John Deere party, but I don't think he realizes how "John Deere" it's actually going to be!  I'm pretty sure this is the most organized I've ever been when it's come to planning a party.  I'm really glad I did it this way, especially with helping host two different showers with limited time in between.
      The clock is ticking.........time is counting down............it's just a matter of days and my kids will be going to spend THREE weeks with their dad.  Granted, I will get to see them for one week-end visit during that time, and I will also get to spend a few hours with them each week, but it's still going to be really hard.  If I didn't have to worry about them so much it wouldn't be as big of a deal.  Unfortunately, their father is somewhat irresponsible and I can't help but worry.  Poor Dez has been suffering like crazy from allergies and she left her drops at her dad's on Sunday.  Rather than bringing them to her that night (because they are VITAL to helping improve her eye), he said he'd do it in the morning.  Well, Monday morning came and went.  Monday afternoon came and went.  We finally got the drops back after Dez had already went to bed.  NICE!  She is supposed to be putting these drops in twice a day, in each eye.  That means she missed THREE doses!!  Am I supposed to think that for some reason, he's magically more responsible when the kids are at his house????  Yeah, I didn't think so.  I just feel terrible for her....her eye just runs and it's red and irritated.  I took her to the doctor last week and I called him again yesterday just to double check, and he said that it's just to be expected with her allergies and to continue giving the drops and the nightly medication.  Hopefully we will see some improvement after she has been on her meds for awhile....of course, right around the time she starts getting better, will be the time she has to go to her dad's, and more than likely she'll come home in worse condition than when she left.  What do ya do??  There's nothing I can do!  Unfortunately, their dad is entitled to this time with them.  She's also old enough to remind them that she needs her meds, but I can't expect her to always be on top of that either!  I just need to remember that it is only temporary and this too, shall pass.
      Things have been going fine at work at the spa.  I've cut my hours back some at the library (not that I was working a ton to begin with) because someone's looking for hours.  I feel that I will have plenty of time to pick up hours there when the kids are with their dad.  Not only that, but I have been running non-stop with all the events that have been going on around here.
      We were able to make it to Arts in the Park, although we had to practically run through it.  We did have time to cop a squat on the grass and eat some great lunch.  Oh, well, there's always next year!  Nothing too much else going on.  I'll be taking the kittens to the vet in a couple of days to have them fixed and declawed.  I'm hoping the rest of the week goes smoothly....I'm looking forward to vegging out all day on Sunday.  I'm penciling it in right now, so I'm guaranteed some relaxation.......HAHAHAHA!  As if anything can be permanently scheduled when you have kids!!  Oh, well...sometime in the 1st 3 weeks of July..........I WILL be taking a nap and a day to do nothing but lay around watching chick flicks and dozing off!
    June 18

    Random rambling

      This week-end seemed to fly by.  The kids are with their dad this week-end, so I will see them tomorrow evening.  He was quite an ass yesterday and I am not looking forward to having to deal with him again.  He signed the visitation papers, so now we're pretty much done......yet, he was still complaining because I called to make sure he was with the kids.  He started threatening me with court and I told him that it wasn't too late, if that's the route he wanted to take.  Of course, he changed his mind immediately because he knows that he is in the wrong.  I made it very clear to him that I didn't appreciate him threatening me and that I had no problems going to court.  I let him get to me for probably 15 minutes and he had me in tears, when I finally woke up and realized that I have control of the situation.  I told him that unless the kids were hurt or in trouble and needed something, then we should probably get off the phone and I'd just talk to him another time.  Now I'm kicking myself for even letting it go that far!  I am pissed that he got me to the point of tears and I'm even more pissed that he was aware of it.  I am soooo not looking forward to my kids having an extended visit with him, but I guess there's nothing I can do about it.  THREE weeks!  The part that bothers me the most is the fact that he is so reckless when it comes to parenting, and my lawyer has told me repeatedly that unfortunately there is nothing they can do until something happens.  Naturally, I sit and worry about their safety and health.  Dez has been having some major allergy issues and it's important that she's taking her medicine on a regular basis.  I can't say enough how grateful I am that this whole visitation war didn't start until recently.  If my kids were younger and 100 % dependant on someone, I'd be even more worried.  At least they are both old enough to have some common sense and know the rules and expectations of them.  They do a pretty good job at reporting back when there's been a problem.  I'm glad he has a relationship with them, I just wish he would do a few things differently when my kids are involved.
     
      I've been faithfully walking for almost a week now.  My weight hasn't changed any, but I've noticed that it is easier for me to get up in the mornings.  I'm planning on continuing throughout the entire summer, but I worry about what's going to happen when school starts again and when the weather changes, especially since South Dakota's longest season is winter and it snows constantly!!!  I hate the yo-yoing.  I get so frustrated!  Up and down.  Total killer for my self-esteem as well.  I get all happy about looking somewhat decent and then I balloon up again.  I've been doing awesome with cutting soda out of my diet, except for yesterday, on which I binged upon everything in sight! 
     
      I've been frantically searching for ideas for games for baby showers.  I agreed to "help" with a friend's baby shower/going away party, and I've ended up doing everything except for having it at my house.  It's been alright, actually easier than I had thought.  I need to grab a few last minute things tomorrow and then pick up some munchies from the store and I should be all set!  I've never done this before, and it's been a LONG time since I had a baby shower, not to mention that mine was simple and I don't think there were games.  Bottom line:  I should be a month further along then her!  I should be having someone throw ME a shower!  I'm jealous!  I'm hurt!  I'm sad!  HELLOOOOOOO, do I not matter at all?  Does the fact that I recently had a miscarriage mean nothing to you? I KNOW, I KNOW!  It's my own fault for agreeing to do this.  I could have said "no" at any time.  I did, well, I tried.  I ignored the idea every time it was mentioned.  I was thrilled to hear that someone else took on the responsibility.  Then come to find out that the hostess wants to do the running for decorations and gifts and everything tomorrow afternoon!  Are you kidding me?????  For real?  Tomorrow Afternoon?  I cannot work like this people!  Can't do it....can't have my name associated with a party that's an embarrassment!  So, I called the guest of honor and asked her how many people she was expecting and let her know to continue with her packing; I'd take care of what I could and I'd make sure everything was groovy.  This is her first baby and I'm gonna miss out on everything.  She's moving to Wyoming at the end of this month.  We're nowhere near as close as we once were, but I'm still gonna miss her.  I just hope she appreciates what I'm doing for her and how hard this really is for me to do.  I have to admit, I haven't bought a gift yet.  That's the hardest part for me.....shopping in the baby aisles.  I just can't help but cry.  It's just gonna take some more time.  This one has affected me differently from the last one.  I think I saw it coming, or just assumed it would happen.  I don't know, it's just different... can't really explain it.  The pain is still there, but it didn't drag me down as long as it did the first time.
     
      I've been scheduled more hours at the spa!  That's awesome because I was actually asked if I wanted to give some of my hours at the library away.  Perfect!  I would much rather work at the spa, plus it pays bigger dollars!  I just got paid on Friday and it's gone already......well, not gone, but spoken for.  After paying bills, I have to set some money aside for the kittens' appointments on Thursday.  I'm estimating that it's gonna be about $200.  That's quite a pinch all at once, but it'll be worth it AND it's a one-time deal.  Poor kitties.  I'm gonna feel so bad for them.
     
      Arts in the Park is this week-end, too.  I so wanted to go this afternoon, but I couldn't talk Julian into it.  He appeased me by agreeing to go with me tomorrow. YAY!  I got to see some beautiful jewelry that I will be wearing in my friend's wedding.  Necklace and some earrings.......wow......it's been a long time since I've worn earrings.  I'm not even sure if I own any earrings.  Hmmmmm, that's very interesting.  Anyways, I'm very excited about gettin' all dolled up.
     
      So, tomorrow's agenda is as follows:
     
    Groceries--for the house and for the shower
    Present--gotta find a present for my preggo, moving friend  (sorry, hon, but since this is a going away SLASH baby shower, I've opted to buy a gift for the going away party only... the shower will be my gift... I just don't want to go down that aisle)
    Balloons--I've got streamers, but "you can't have a party without balloons!"  (<----quote from mom)
    Arts in the Park--it's all about the food. mmmmmmmmmmm  besides, I'll walk it off later
    Cleaning--YAY!!  my favorite! Um, yeah. J/K, but the litterboxes are all in desperate need of changing....        the bathroom has seen better days.... the kitten floor is disgusting.... as is the living room.... naturally, there is laundry to be done.... and the fish need some maintenance as well, poor guys could use a gallon or two of water
    Shower--6pm, gonna head over there about 5pm to set-up and get things ready
    Hugs & Kisses--kids should be home from their dads by the time I'm home from the shower
     
    In addition to that, I will need to call dad and wish him a "Happy Father's Day".  Just happened to notice the time....gonna go catch a few hours of sleep.

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    June 11

    Awwwwwww

    Nothing going on today. We were able to find a home for the baby pheasants and they were all still alive when we dropped them off! Another gloomy day outside. Nothing new to report today.........so...........here's some cute babies to check out!!
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    June 10

    What a day, What a day!

      Well, today was definitely full of surprises!  This morning Dez and I headed off the the Oz festival out at Storybook Land.  It was ridiculously cold out, but that didn't slow Dez down any.  She was pretty determined to complete all the projects they had available.  In fact, by the time we left, I think she had done all but one.
       She made a tornado in a bottle, colored bubbles, a bookmark, an "emerald bag", a Tin Man's hat, and a lollipop, to name some of those she completed.  She was intrigued by the clown making balloon animals, so we stood by him for a few minutes.  When it was her turn, she asked for a flower.  He said he'd need her help to do it, and she would need to hold one of the balloons on top of her head.  She wouldn't do it!  I was shocked....Dez has never been the shy type, or easily embarrassed, but she would NOT have anything to do with that.  They went back and forth and the clown tried telling her that he couldn't make her a flower if she didn't help him out.  She just stared at him and said she really wouldn't help him.  Even with me trying to coax her, she wouldn't do it.  So the clown finally gave in and made her the flower regardless.  She was really polite and thanked him, but it surprised me that she wouldn't act silly.  I asked her about it when we were walking away and she said that it would have been too embarrassing.  I guess maybe she's getting the the age where she is becoming self-conscious.... I just hope she doesn't become as uptight and shy as I was.  I'm hoping that she keeps her carefree attitude and isn't worried about what other people think.  I dunno though, after today I'm beginning to wonder.
     
      Things were fairly quiet after the Oz festival.  We went out shopping for awhile and then we grabbed some lunch from a Chinese place and headed home to eat.  After lunch, she went across the street to a friend's and ended up going shopping again with them.  I took advantage of that and took a nap.  (Wasn't until after I downloaded my pics from my camera that I discovered that I had been captured on film wihile napping.  My 1st instinct was to delete it, but I guess since I post pics of everyone else, I'll leave it be!)  Dez came home and ended up taking a nap also.
     
      Jacerman didn't come home until after 6pm, but when he did, boy did he have a surprise!  He came walking in the house with 4 baby pheasants!!!  THANKS PAPA!!  I asked my dad if he seriously expected me to keep them, and he said that they're Jace's and Jace is gonna raise them.  WHATEVER!  Seriously!  Come on!  I live in an apartment!  With 3 cats!  Needless to say, Gizmo has had to forfeit his tank and that is housing the baby pheasants at the moment.  I tried calling around to find someone to take these birds, but I was unable to get ahold of anyone.  Tomorrow (if they survive), they are going to Runnings (the tractor & supply store).  I guess they take baby ducks and raise them, so I'm hoping I can dump these pheasants off too.  I know absolutely nothing about raising them.  My downstairs neighbor came up and nursed them to a better condition then they were in.  She and the kids fed them one by one bits of worms and also oats.  They warmed them up and created a warm environment for them to sleep in.  They're super quiet now as compared to when they 1st came home.  I thought for sure they were never gonna shut up, but they're amazingly quiet now.  Thanks Shannon!  They are super adorable, but getting rid of them will be the 1st thing on my agenda tomorrow.
     
      I need to spend the majority of tomorrow cleaning.  I can't find my heating pad and now I'm wondering if I loaned it out and never got it back, or if I simply misplaced it.  Either way, upon searching for it, Julian came to the decision that a storage unit needs to be rented and this place needs to be downsized.  If that's the case, then I guess I need to start going through and organizing and deciding what needs to stay here.
     
      I've only got one load of laundry left to do.  That's been one bonus of the terrible weather lately....I haven't had to run the AC, so I've been able to run the dryer.  (Just to remind everyone...I live in a ghetto-ass apartment and am unable to run my dryer and AC at the same time.)  The kids and I are also gonna make cookies.  I've recently tried the Monster Cookie bizzard from the DQ and have decided that I now want to try this wonderful Monster Cookie by itself.  I figured the kids would love doing something like that.  It hasn't been raining or anything like that, but it's been rather cold out and I guess I'd like to see them inside where it's warm on days like this.
     
     
    June 04

    Nothing but work all week-end long!

      This week-end was rather uneventful.  The kids stayed with their dad Friday and Saturday night.  Mom picked them up and spent the day with them at Storybook Land today, until Jacerman got sick.  I think it was maybe just too much going on; running on too little sleep with too much heat.  It's been pretty warm here lately.  We've had the ACs running 24/7.  The only bad thing about that is my ghetto-type apartment, where I can only run the AC or the dryer...doing both at once will just end up blowing a fuse!
     
      I worked all week-end at the spa and will be working Monday thru Thursday this week as well, in addition to working Monday thru Friday at the library!  Oh, well...should be getting some good paychecks down the road!!
     
      Tomorrow night, I plan on taking the kids to the castle for their weekly activity.  Tomorrow's agenda includes making water yo-yos.  I want to get in as much as I can with them, since this summer will be limited.  I plan on sending a list with Will of the events I would normally take the kids to, but whether or not he'll take them is another story.  I'm not really sure what, if anything, he has planned to do with them.